- I found this "random thoughts" text file on my computer dating from almost 2 years ago:
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ThoughtPatterns
SpinFactor
LifePlan
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* More on the feared correlation between socialization & these symptoms. Describe exactly the things I planned & executed in the last 7 years or so.
* Correlary: the way I seem to love isolation even after (due to?) breaking into the social world. Vienna. More than isolation: personal adventure. Heroes; Switzerland; stranding myself today.
* More influential novel characters: Dostoevsky, Songmaster...
* I somehow knew I was going to get Mr. Ripley'd with my roadtrip plans. Am I just observational & associative about my role in relationships, or is this life acting out fiction? And here I thought this aspect was the exception, where I got to play Dickie: blindingly intense compatriot when I'm 'there', but all too easily shifting to aloofness or more likely avoidance.
* my postings on privacy as concerns public policy & society are well known, but how do
I feel about it? Here I have this totally open Wiki, but I like to keep secret some cool things...for actual secrecy, as a spin factor to tell myself "if people like me given what's public, imagine how much more if they knew...", or to store up character-enhancing (spun) anecdotes to actually share/show off at some point? Then there's the matter of me being a private person in the sense of preferring to be self-sufficient in every way (went through the financial thing with my dad, but I'm mostly talking about intellectual independence, e.g. that every opinion I hold be something I alone decided upon).
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